Hello everyone
I’m not the kind of person who knows how to articulate my feelings, but inside me, there are so many emotions, and they are all contradictory. At one point in my life, there was someone I loved, and they loved me too, but we ended up parting ways. After we broke up, I didn’t feel like I had any problem, or maybe I was just deceiving myself, I’m not sure. Since that moment, I’ve been focused on work, but I’m afraid of being alone with my thoughts, because that’s when I end up thinking about her. She was the one I would turn to when I was upset or when I had problems, the feeling of not talking to anyone, and then suddenly finding someone you can tell all your secrets to, someone who knows things that even the closest people to you don’t. That feeling has been suffocating me. I thought I was okay, but I don’t know now if I miss her, or if I’m simply yearning for what she used to offer me. Even the gallery since we broke up, I’ve been afraid to open it. Today, I opened it, and it felt like I was dying as the memories flooded back. I really missed her. But now I wonder, do I truly love her, or is it just that I miss something she used to give me and that I lacked?