Hi, I’m Emma,I don’t know where to begin, but you know when there’s someone in your life who becomes the first person you trust with everything? You tell them your deepest secrets that you’ve been trying to hide from others, out of fear for yourself and from people. That person becomes the center of your world, and whenever a problem happens, without thinking, you run to them and tell them everything, like a child. And suddenly, the most important person in your life becomes nothing, and you don’t even know how to feel about them anymore. Do you still love them? Do you want to go back? Should you talk to them? The person you trusted keeps judging you, trying to change you in a way that suits them, and you begin to doubt yourself, feeling exhausted. And when you distance yourself, you feel so relieved, but there’s something missing, and you’re not sure if what’s missing is really your love for them, or just the presence of someone in your life to confide in, share your problems and worries with. Honestly, this is the worst feeling when you don’t know what you’re feeling, and your emotions are confused, especially with the most important person in your life.
The worst feeling
Well yes and no … I had this person who I trusted and gave everything to … but other than her trying to change me … she changed herself… and disappeared… no matter how many times I tried to talk with her or reache her she kept disappearing… made me think if I did something wrong … or I’m just … don’t deserve to be loved …
of course, u deserve better than her, and maybe her absence and disappearance were better for u. I completely understand that there are times when we feel like the fault is within us, and that we don’t deserve love, However, this feeling is difficult and exhausting, but this is definitely wrong cause every person deserves to love and be loved and to find someone who sees the good in u.
Well hi, Emma
Actually you are missing your happy self version with her not herself especially that when you realize that she is trying to change you you left with consciousness but it is OK to feel that you missing the comfort feeling that she gave to you.
Hoping you find good love that you deserve 🩵