I am not an Arab but I live in the Middle East, I have been for a very long time. I think growing up in this environment is one of the reasons it’s so hard for me to accept who I am.
I’m desperate to leave and move to a more open, more western country where I could be out and free and unafraid. I feel like I’m in hell everyday. I feel so alone. I find myself bursting into tears all the time. I could never talk to anyone about this. I am not out to my family or friends and I feel like I’m such a coward. I have suicidal thoughts constantly and I fear it will only go downhill from here.
I’m glad I came across this website. It’s serendipity, I think. Finding something when I need it the most. I have never voiced out my thoughts like this. Maybe this will be the light at the end of a very, very long tunnel.