So, I have been gay since ever, but lately I have been so down that I thought of taking my life. I am gay, and there is this girl who loves me so much, I have been dodging her for too long, and I've decided to LET IT BE! I will talk to her and maybe we will be in a relationship. I don't think of her sexually nor emotionally, but I have had my doubts, my gay faith is shaking, I will tell her that I just like her, and we will see where it will go from there. I know this is absurd, but I am tired, just tired, plainly tired, something must be done, this is not the best thing to be done but what can I say, being alone in your own community sucks ;|.