So , basically , since i was 4 i felt something is wrong with me ... weird , awkward sense that actually makes no sense at all ...
only one person on this planet knows this but , well ...
I was like 7 , almost 8 as i remember , and he was 20 , he used to work for my dad
and so i used to visit dad at work , While dad didnt pay much attention to me
that freak was trying to get me .... laid . i dunno.... he never actually -Fucked- me but everything else lol , i really wanna know where was this guts when i was 7 ...
it was like an infection , everywhere i went , i found someone flirting with me
Simply as an example , School , i was at the 3rd grade , i`ve no idea how it happened
me and him .. touching and .... blahhhh - you dont need to know the details-
Deep inside , i felt such guilt ... so i tried to hold myself and never try to act this like again.
Then , when i got to the 7th grade , somehow , i dont know how either
i knew like 11 gay guys in school at my age , so we made up a group
its main cause was to learn from each other and control our desires
i had the leadership of this group until 9th grade , i noticed , gradually my group has changed into a sex addicts` group , not to heal from it but to increase it ...OMG.. i was
i was wrong ,,, my trails went to the bottom and therefore i stepped away from the leadership and broke up the group , They made their own group ( as expected)
and they kept trying to pull me in , alot actually , some of them tried to flirt with me sexually , i didnt give them any kind of attention , on and on they tried , so i gathered them and told them all to piss off me because i`m not like them ...
Well , so they made up a rumor at school that i was gay . How funny noone believed it
OFC! because i dont act like those freaks....ew , however , i`m at the 11th grade now , they`re still hunting me and i`m still kicking them off
one of them was wot i used to call , a soul mate , but turned out to be a guy who can fuck anything , and i mean ANYTHING!. just like the rest of them and vice versa
umm....well , this was the First of my shares here , hope if you can help , give an advice , or in any kind of ways , dont hesitate , we all need each other to live , to survive throughout this blinded world.
In the end , i`d like to say " If we cant make a change , then shall the change make ourselves? no , we were born as free minds and we will live , breath , and pass with a mind that lives to love and loves living , for each other and with each other , we will make it out together "
¬Quite Thankful for all of you people¬