so i have kind of good news. actually something was told to me that made me feel that i have a message in this world and i figure out what is it :)
a friend of mine, he is straight, met him by mutual friends .. but he knows from the first time i meet him that i am gay.
so a few days ago he told that he was extremely homophobic but after meeting me ..his view has changed of LGBT people .. and if he saw two guys holding hand he would say something like "faggots" but i made change his point of view. simply cause he finally got it, that we all are humans and have feelings.
i think that my message in the world ..and maybe why i was born this way,i can proudly say that homophobic people are less by one.