Okay ,so here is the summary of the story . i started to experience same gender attraction at a young age like 8 years or something. and at age 14 puberty age , i began to fall in love with one of my childhood friends.it was pure love ,loved everything in him and this went on for like 7 years(till age 21) of non stoppable loving him.
I came out to myself so late in age 19(took me so long). so at this age and before it by some months i realized that this is going to a dead end ,as i knew he was straight and since i didn't came out to anyone it was so hard for me to at least tell him about myself. so i kept in this -one way love- for a long time .when i be with him i make myself (unconsciousness) very vulnerable. i even fantasized about him everyday.
so jumping to more recent events, i tried to move on. Kept myself away from him with any means. and a kinda miracle help happened:" he asked me on chat that am i gay or not? ". i sensed he was going to ask this sooner or later because am wide open on my facebook account. So i came out to him telling him my story bla bla bla as he wondered *the usual questions that one asks you when you tell him/her* .
For all these years i was so afraid that he doesn't accept me for who i truly am as like other childhood friends did . But for the surprise he did accept me in a great way :"said that he has no right in telling me what i should be ,its who i am .but he wished i wasn't gay. and he consider me as more than a friend ,brother more" well close enough :D . and he didn't criticize any action i did after this incident.
So now i am free from this one way relation ,i am in the no love to feel time. just living my life as normal. and what it seems that i didn't get rid of this love towards him completely T_T .so any advice to overcome this??
P.s:i like one college friend but as usual he is straight >_< always fall for straight guys .troublesome . sorry if i talked so much ,just wanted to show you the whole image. Thanks.