I'm feeling trapped. I'm lesbian i live in the Middle East and I LOVE my very conservative and religious family. especially my mom.
Due to cultural issues it's nearly impossible to maintain a healthy romantic relationship in my country. It's very painful because i really want to have a partner. I have seen some people here advising others to move to some GLBT friendly country but it simply is impossible to me. Why? because i can't leave my parents. It's not just a sense of duty. I feel as if i can't live a day without them. If i leave i probably will never see them again and if i stay and continue to tie my life to them i can't have any life of my own.
This problem is affecting other aspects of my life too. I can't make any real decision because i have no clear goal ahead of me. I am almost always depressed and anxious.
I know all of this seems really whiny to you but this situation truly upsets me :( .