i lost my family over my identity. they expect me to go back to beg for their forgiveness. i am instead waiting for their apologies for the insulting and hurtful treatment. i don't deserve this. and if they put me through it just because of who i am, then they don't deserve me.
this is the hypocrisy of the whole situation. my uncle beats his wife, he is forgiven and loved. everyone accepts him and treats him normally. his wife files for divorce, he refuses to divorce her, threatens her with custody for the children, he remains welcome in our home. the same home that i am not welcome to. not because i hit anyone. not because i am abusive. but because i am gay.
this is not just how my family treat me.
this is how my society treats me.
hypocracy and double standards. doing this in the name of religion but committing crimes and having that be more acceptable than your child being in a loving relationship with someone from the same sex.
i am not ashamed of who i am. i do not feel guilty. i am ashamed of having them as my family. and living in a society that routinely accepts this behavior. .