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i have come to terms with my sexuality not too long ago but sometimes i have those moments where i am sitting among so called friends and there using the most cruel homophobic words there ever was and expressing soo much hatred against being homosexuals and i am just going crazy wanting to jump and yell and say that there nothing wrong with being gay but of course i cant and after we say goodbye and we go home i find my self second thinking who i am.
does that happen to anyone else and if so how do u deal with it?

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  • 17-24_f_w_h3_f2
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    It seems to me that what's causing you to feel this way is your friends bashing people who are of that sexual orientation, making you question yourself and have you go through thinking whether this may be wrong and even cause denial at times.

    I'm just saying this might be it perhaps because I've felt this way before when my friends have done the same things your friends have and still do occasionally. It used to make me think it's wrong and that I shouldn't be this way but I've always been sure of myself and don't let that get to me anymore.

    Go over your feelings again and make sure of them without letting their behaviour affect anything.

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  • I can just say one thing:Be proud of who you are and f*** the rest :)

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    thank u its nice to know there are ppl out there i can talk to

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  • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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    I think this happens to me a lot as well

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  • 17-24_f_f_h1_f3
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    it happened to me a lot and my reaction is always fighting for who I'm :) and trust me i had really bad comments on protection something they call it weird :/

    • Completely natural. Ignore other people's comments because in situations like these your own feelings are the only thing that matter and you can't afford to get other people to mess with your perception of your own identity and potentially confuse or depress you.

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      i agree :)

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  • It happens to all of us. Not everyone has enough experience, understanding or exposure to realize that homophobia is actually a problem.
    It would help if you start talking with your friends about tolerance in general, don't specifically talk about homosexuality, but other forms of tolerance (religious, racial, cultural,...etc) and gradually make them realize that accepting difference is part of being human.
    As for your own negative feelings, it would really help if surround yourself with different set of friends who will help you accept who you are.
    In most cases we are very much influenced by what our friends and people around us perceive of us and their opinions and judgements affect us. Its only natural.
    Don't abandon your friends, but try to spend less time with them at one point, and try to spend more time with people who inspire you and encourage you to be an adjusted, happy human being :)

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      Love this :) Took the words right out of my mouth. I agree entirely. Worked for me in the earlier days when I had similar questions about my sexuality.

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    • 17-24_f_w_h2_f1
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      What Zizi said. You are better off being alone than with people who can be so hateful, so yes, do limit your contact with them. What's important is that you're happy with yourself. You will find people who are more tolerant and will be a positive influence in your life.

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  • 17-24_m_w_h3_f3
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    I've heard all sorts of hateful comments towards all kinds of people here, I heard people I know say that all women are sluts! I saw people make fun of people with disabilities, fat people, people of different ethnicity (especially chinese people for some reason), poor people etc. So I just ignore any hateful comments I hear about homosexuals because everyone hates everyone in this stupid country lol.

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  • 51-65_m_b_h3_f1
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    It's stating the obvious, I know, but we all know, and have experienced first-hand, that people hate differences. One of my closest friends is homophobic! Thank God, I do have tens, maybe hundreds of other friends, though only one knows about "my condition"... This used to be a problem, indeed until quite recently, but not any more; since God sent me my other half :-).

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  • 17-24_m_w_h3_f1
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    I thought I should add.. so yea this hurts me everytime seeing a guy wearing whatever he wants, people calling him gay, like do you really know what a gay guy is? and every1's being judged, so whenever I'm sitting and people are just calling each other gay based on what he does, if he's being emotional, if he's being sensitive, whatever.. friends use it now to pick on each other.. "you're gay", like wth is with the community, people don't realize how people are sensitive anymore, this is why I can no longer take it, they can't accept that some people are different, this is why I was bullied in the first place, because I stood out and stood up for my beliefs.., and those who make fun of the poor, or overweight people.. it's all just the same, it doesn't just go to our LGBT community, it happens in every single way.. I'm just tired of hearing all the judgments, but you know what, I now show a lot of anger towards people who judge, and I depress them in the most simple words; "You dunno what they've been through, they maybe a much greater cause to God than you are, look at how you live your life and look at how they live yours, atleast.. they might not be stabbing people in their backs or judging them, which is good enough for me" and then I walk away.. I've tried so many times to stop people from judging because I'm just done with the judgments, you can either stand up for it.. doesn't mean come out of the closet, no.. judging in general, in a way that doesn't make them suspicious of you, or you can ignore the comments, both work.. just try to badly let it go and think positive.

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  • 17-24_f_w_h3_f2
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    well it happenes to me all the time , it is so annoying i understand u , but dnt jump and defend gays cuz when i did that i had my friends looking at me like i am an alien or sth and one of my friends said infront on my mum stop with watching english movies so much cuz it is starting to affect ur thoughts and it is not good for u . i just hate living in a homophobical place (egypt) and i just founded this website which was so helpful ! if anyone wants to add me i could really use some friends u can find me at nora_sabry60@hotmail.com or nora_sabry60@yahoo.com thnx all

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  • 17-24_m_w_h3_f1
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    There's nothing wrong of being gay! maybe your friends just didn't know how to support... homophobia is everywhere! if u livin in cairo text me i'll take u out with a crew of gays... and u will find urself normal among them, believe me there's nothing wrong with u being gay :)

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  • 17-24_f_b_h1_f2
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    I think having gay friends helps you alot cause you feel your not alone n that someone got your back, plus you cant change people and the way they think of us but you can start feeling damn proud that your gay :). CAUSE GIRL ... GAY = AWESOME

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    I guess u don't have gay friends... u should have a gay crew! where around them u will feel safe & loved for who u really are... & NOT the fake person we take out in front of straight guys!

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