I'm sure I'm not the first person to have my heartbroken and I'm definitely not going to be the last one.
I joined the site, just today and well here I am sharing my story.
It took me a while to figure out and come to terms with my sexuality but I never acted on it cause I was never really attracted to anyone, I had girls like me, at least that's what I felt, they never said anything and I never asked cause I never felt the same.
Then, I met this girl last year, to my surprise.. I ended up really liking her and for someone who has literally never been so attracted to another person, this was the highlight of my year. I remember telling a friend about it and he asked 'Oh she's Bisexual? Be careful, they always leave you for a man in the end' I just ignored his comment, thinking it was just a stupid stereotype (I still think it's a stupid stereotype) But here I am, living it.
We were together for almost a year then we recently decided to end things cause acting on her Gay side was something she wanted to stop. Despite the fact that I love her a lot, I understood where she was coming from so I decided to comply with it, however we decided to remain friends. A day later, she decided she wanted to cut off all contact with me for some time, again I decided to do so and then 10 days later she tells me there's a guy, she really likes him and he likes her too.
And I'm sitting there wondering, that a few days ago, you were with me? Telling me how much I mean to you, then you wanted to end things and now less than 2 weeks later, you're telling me there's a man you 'really' like him and he likes you back? Excuse me?
The break up and the no contact period that she forcibly implied after lashing out on me took a toll on me but more so the fact that she revealed her liking for someone only 10 days after we separated, just raised my trust issues to an entirely new level, like did she ever mean anything she said to me? Did she really even love me or care for me? Or was I just a pass time till she actually met a man?
I will never find that answers to these questions. And I know time will heal this pain but here in this moment right now, it really does suck. Doesn't it?