Inspired by Momo's comment in this topic: http://ahwaa.org/topics/4
I wanted to start another topic about coming out to yourself.
Some people are aware of this from an early age and some people battle with it even at the age of 80. Some people are sure while others remain confused. What is your experience?
To share my experience, I was in denial for a long time because I was not ready for this challenge. This was a personal struggle that I was not geared up for and I did not want to bring shame to my family, or to stand out from my friends and my society. I wanted to be normal. It was only after I fell in love that I came out to myself and took a chance with that person. It defined who I was and I no longer felt compelled to continue the denial. Kuwait has a nice and supportive gay community that helped me with this.
I was tired of not living my life merely to satisfy others. It was time to live mine even if my life was meant to be difficult. It doesn't have to be difficult however because if you seek the support from the right places, you will find it. There are millions who will relate to you and talking to them helps you put aside the fears and embrace the challenges ahead with an open mind.