I have always been straight but around the age of 16, I started falling in love with my best friend who was a girl. she had a boyfriend so of course I never even talked about liking her. but we used to hold hands sometimes and just fool around but of course not in sexual way. we would hug and say we love each other as friends or sisters. but then, I started to develop feelings for her. And I used to imagine how wonderful it would be to kiss her. unfortunately, our friendship ended and i sometimes wonder if she felt I liked her and ended it because of that. The fact that I liked this girl made me question if I was really straight. another thing is that I find some women very attractive to the point that I want to flirt with them and I get turned on by them too. the other problem is I'm a Christian and so being a lesbian is completely wrong in my religion. also I want to marry a man in the future. I guess I want to love a woman but marry a man to just live a normal life and stay the "good girl" I am. What do you think I should do? How do I deal with my confusion? .