Ever since I was a child I knew I was different I don't think people my age deserve to experience that, while most children my age use to just be themselves and just play around I was questionning myself and scared of tomorrow
I was bullied alot at school and up until this day I still remember the names I was called ,when I grew up exactly at high school I used to hear my friends talking about girls and how hot 'x' girl is and I just didn't get it , I wasn't feeling anything towards them
I've searched my entire small town for someone like me but I couldn't find anyone and what a scary place to be!
for the last years I was living the life of a successful straight guy and now i'm paying the price , living this lie caused me depression and guilt I've been hurting girls in the process I've been lying to girls who felt for a guy I'm not
deep inside I like men it's just me ..it's always been that way
Lately I just run away from everything from everyone, I deactivated my accounts on social medias, I changed my number I just want to be alone for a while to figure out where this will leads.