Hi guys, so this is the first time I ever write anything on this platform, I just wanted to share this story with you guys to know If you have similar stories or anything to say about it.
Long story short currently I'm on my last year in a engineering school, in my first year I was really shy and I met this guy in my class he knew people there so he was like my guide . up until my first year I didn't really know If I was gay or not cuz I've always been confused I've been exclusively with women but have strong feelings for guys but never worked on them.
let's go back to our guy so I remember the very first time I met him in the cafeteria it was strange I instantly felt a strange feeling towards him it was like a sort of butterflies if I may say .He's a very handsome guy with green eyes and a beautiful beard and the weird thing is he was attached to me because he wanted someone to do homework ith and so on.
he used to come to the house I was renting near college and I could feel that there was something going on cuz I was developing strong feeling towards him it was something I never felt towards a girl before something beautiful and just out of this world , I mean just the way his laugh was contagious to me his voice GOSH I was in love with his deep voice . and I was literally dying inside for not being abl to tell him I was hoping he would be gay and my love to him was influencing me , I mean we would be in class and all I'd do was staring at him his beautiful shaped mouth and just what it would be to kiss him and feel the warmth of his chest.
One day he called and said he was gonna came to my house to do some homework I remember that I got excited like a little bitch as if I had a chance hahah
he rang the bell I opened and it was the catastrophe he was wearing this very short shorts and i'm telling you I was staring right at the sexiest legs ever I mean OMG he was wearing so hot hah and so we started doing homework than he said he was gonna say something important that he wanted to say to me
I felt like my heart was going to stp I tought he's gonna say he has feelings for me and I imagined how that would be aakkhh
and then he opened his mouth and said he thinks he loves laila who is the girl in our squad and if I know if she's engaged cuz he was gonna tell her
I can't tell you guys how damaged I felt and how broken my heart was at that moment .
The problem is laila had feelings for me she always acted interested and a friend told me that but I've chosen to leave on her so he can have her because I loved him
so that's the story in love with my straight friend and caught up in this love triangle with his girlfriend who basically had feelings for me and me having feelings for him up until this day
I just don't know what to do guys;;;;; should I tell him about my true feelings I mean he's straight and I think i'm gonna lose him as a friend let along what he's gonna think of me cuz I don't look like your next door gay guy i'm masculine and very popular and successful at school but I would give my all to just be with him.