hello everyone , first of all i would like to say what a wonderful website this is and how im so glad i met ppl like you here :* :3
OK ! so , here the deets , first of all im 18 soon to be 19 and the thing is , i never "came out" to myself because there was never a moment where i went "oh , im gay" i just always knew since i was like 9 or 8 but of course as we grow up society enforces these rules and regulations that we have to follow and so i was very depressed all the way thu middle school bcuz i always had to pull on this straight facade , always having to be careful of what i say , what i do etc etc and never being able to finally be myself , i felt suffocated and i didnt like where my life was heading so i made a choice , i was transferring schools to start high school and i had taken the decision to always be myself and so , on the first day of my new high school life i went as i am . skin tigh jeans , high pitch voice , the strut in my walk the queeny attitude , the whole 9 yards so to speak XD
i was never expecting it to be all rainbows and teddys and sure as hell it wasn't XDD i was shunned by the entire school and haven't made any friends mostly bcuz ppl where scared i would like them or whatever i mean a bazillion rumor that i like this guy and i like that guy started flying around and honestly i hated all of them XDD but i stayed strong and true to myself and honestly , i could finally breathe gain :)
but now its my last month in high school EVER , and when i look , back i havent accomplished anything from a social point of view , i dont have any friends , dont have anyone to talk to , im all alone so my question is , what i rlly wrong to act as myself and by doing so excommunicating myself and basically intentionally committing social suicide :/ ??
i just wanna know what u guys think and what i should do :3 .