Biologically i was born a male.But since i was a little kid,my brain and spirit always felt like a girl. Before i even knew about transgenders or LGBTQ people. I actually thought i was the only human being stuck in the wrong body.Anyway ! I always treated myself and talked to it as a girl.I'm pretty sure people here are familiar with my story and it's struggles. But I'm 22 now and I didn't have my transition yet, and i have a brother. Which means I am going to place loaded with men that i will sleep,eat,shower...etc with !!! I don't know if like i even survived not getting bullied or raped,if i will survive mentally ! I don't really know what to do ! Suicide sometimes seems an answer to this particular problem ! I don't hate my life ! I love and accept myself ! but i'd rather die than go through this horrific experience
I am geniusly against nationalism ! thinking my dirt is better than yours cause i was born on it !!! but if it's an obligation to go to the army, i don't mind at all !I am a tough girl ! I have been through bad shit ! but let it be with female military.
I don't know what to do please help, advice, i am losing time and hope .