I've been questioning my self lately.. Am I a freak for being a lesbian..?
I don't know what to do with myself I have no life being a lesbian I cant live like normal people I've never lived life like normal people.. Acting striagh and giving up on myself is not a choice I can't go with it and I can't go with this every thing is forbidden and haram.. I tried to open up about homosexuality in general and what I got back is homosexual people should be killed just like the way that Isis killing them.. Religion and people around me are against this part of me should I ignore myself, my needs and finding the perfect girl for me... I've been dreaming about my wedding day standing next my wife both of us wearing these perfect white dresses since I was 14 .. I wish I can live my dream for real one day.