hello brother's and sisters
today i found my self in need to talk and share... and since i have no one else to understand me except you guys ..here i am
am in a crossway....
first lit me Introduces my self , am Mimi am 37 year old, am a transsexual mtf, ( i did't start any Transition yet) and gay.
am a Coward & undetermined & A psychopath person
as many of us i have 2 life's
one life is the out front life is Mr.... who is very respectable working family man.... waif & 3 kids...
the other life is MIMI a gay, crossdresser, who dream about become a transgender , have a boy friend .
both life are very separated
the prob is:
my life goal is to get Immigration state sponsor of homosexuals ( maybe Canada )
and always I tried to Creating conditions to do it.... but all My decisions Was wrong and unsuccessful
what am dealing with now is
wife Skeptical & I think she knew some thing I think she knew
i was planing to have Early retirement, and arrange for the Immigration in secret , and run away ,
now am Afraid from the unknown , will i found LGBT paradise there, dose it worth it, will i lose every thing and end up Suicide again ?
i dont know .....
any idea or help