I think all of us been through this stage when you fell in love with one of your best friends, and you start to be afraid of anything you do to him and you'll be awkwardly nice to him.
when ever he tells you that he's coming to your place you start getting this weird shiver in your body and start talking to yourself of what should you do to make him know that really like him more than a friend and open to him it's so F*&$#ing hard but then...when ever he does something nice to you or catch his eyes looking at you you think that he ACTUALLY does like you too but in fact he doesn't it's just because you're terribly in love with him and whenever he go out with girl you be so angry that you wanna bunch her in the face and he comes asks you "what do you think about her?" and I'll be like "dmmm she's nice but I think you deserve better" :'') so you keep lying to yourself that it might work and you want to de efforts but in reality you do nothing because 99.9% that your friendship will be broken after and even if you fix it you can still see the cracks .
let me talk to you about my best friend more so you can understand of what I've been through haha he is so freaking cute with his fascinating eyes and his funny character and with his cute triceps ...basically he's a ladies man so anyways I'm 100% sure that he's straight and I'm pretty sure that he kinda knows that I'm gay and I know that he has a little gay spark
but I'm just gonna be his buddy or his best friend as I always used be !
Anyways I am bisexual my guy crushes are always stronger than my girls crushes ...and specially with your best friend man that's really hard