So I came out to all my friends a long time ago, some left and some stayed and supported.
But it didn't end there ..
The few who stayed, also left.
They said they support me and I should feel safe around them and just "be myself". So I did.
And it was a mistake.
They didn't keep their words, they said "we thought we can adopt to it because we love you no matter what, but we actually can't".
So, I am alone now, 100% alone, for being gay, not for being a bad friend, not for being a bad human being .. for being gay.