Here's my story, I've lived my entire life as a heterosexual girl till 2 years ago.
I met a girl, she was openly lesbian and hooked up with her. At first, it was more like a game to me, and to her too. I considered myself as someone open to new experiences of any kind so homosexual sex was something I really wanted to experience...
Long story short, we're still together. It's been 2 years and 3 months now. We love each other so much that I really think that she made me more complete of a human being.
But, I still struggle with my sexual identity. Sometimes, I still get confused. I had a vision of my life; having a boyfriend, eventually getting married, having kids... being WITH someone publicly, and it's the most difficult part. Everyone, even our closest friends know that we're best friends but no one knows we're "together" we're always hiding what we are to each other.
Am I still the same person I was before meeting her? I still get attracted to men but I can't imagine my life without her. My family and my friends are always asking why I don't get myself a boyfriend and the worst part is that sometimes I want to, but she's essencial to my existence.
To sum up, I'm in a very vulnerable phase. I don't know what I am or what I want...
I'd be very grateful if you would interact with me, say anything, make me feel I'm not alone..