Do you think that being gay is a blessing? I mean obviously it is not something you choose to be, it is who you are. Like life. You don’t get to choose life, life chooses you. Otherwise you would just be one of the millions of souls that are waiting in line to get picked. The one thing you have control over is the choices you make in life and for whatever reason, you often choose wrong. But that’s okay, because life leads you to different paths. You’ll fall and get up. You’ll get hit and you hit back. You’ll get hurt and, believe it or not, eventually you always forgive. That’s life. Do you think, like getting picked out of the millions of souls, you were picked to be gay? Just as being black, being female etcetera.
I know that everything happens for a reason; I am aware of that. And I am also aware of the fact that a Muslim must accept everything he/she faces in life that were given by God. The good and the bad, with patience, hope and believe in His knowledge. I know when someone has cancer or has an accident and they are recovering through accepting their fate with believe in God's reward at the end. People tell them: God loves you; that's why you got cancer, He only tests His strong believers. Do you think God loves you, because you are one of the strongest souls? That it takes a strong soul to refuse to act on gay feelings? And that being gay is to test your love for Him and the only way to pass the test is to ignore everything that trigger gay feelings. As a reward of your hard work, the loneliness, the pain, the suffering, the doubt and believe, you enter His highest Paradise? Then again, how about happiness on earth? No one can live alone.
We all need someone to love. Someone who’ll stand next to us and hold our hand. Especially when life gets too painful. It is in our nature to connect with someone; not only physically, but emotionally and mentally. I know as Muslims we don't believe in happy endings on earth. True happiness is found in Heaven. But, there is some kind of a happy ending on earth.
Happy endings you see in movies aren’t cut out for everyone. Some of us have happy endings in their own special way. This doesn’t mean that happy endings don’t exist…happy endings are real…you just have to find yours. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from live, it’s that it’s though. It will pull you down and hit you to the ground, you try to get up, but it pulls you down again. You get up and then it punches you even harder and you fall. Every time you try to get up, you can’t. And then you lose the confidence in yourself. You let yourself get hit and hit, but you don’t hit back anymore. You don’t trust life anymore and eventually…you give up. At that moment, that exact moment, when you feel you had enough. When you’ve lost all hope, when you are tired and weak..…life surprises you. I believe with all my heart that being gay is a blessing. I used to think it was a curse. I think that I am a strong soul and I am proud to be different and unique. I'm glad He picked me :D .