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feeling completely lost with completely no sense of belonging to anyone or anything constantly battling with myself and constantly loosing i am a lesbian i cant stop myself from having feelings for girls and at the same time its deeply wired in my brain and consciousness that its a sin and i cant deny it i just don't know what to do anymore i feel so burned out and broken.

i cant continue to live like this if i act on my lesbian feelings it will be like giving in to my demons and if i don't its just too painful not to be able to express your love to the person that matters to you, constantly plastering myself my emotions is just very exhausting

i really don't know what to do anymore.

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  • 17-24_f_b_h1_f2
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    i know fully how hopeless, and lonely, this must feel. and how you cant do anything to help this situation. the one thing i can tell you is that we all went through this one way or another. some of us in our early years, some of us as teenagers, some of us as middle aged and some of us as elderly people. this is not a feeling that can just go away on its own without you playing some kind of active role to prevent it from taking over your life, because it can ruin it.

    the one thing you can be is patient and to train yourself how to be positive in challenging situations, how to make the most out of a negative feeling, how to be better, how to feel better, and most importantly HOW TO LOVE! you have to learn to love. dont give in to those demons inside of you that you speak of. its only a distraction. and you cant find love if you give in to it. absolutely you cant.

    the moment you start to accept fully who you are, and love who you are, and to be patient in getting to know more about who you are, exploring life and its challenges and embracing its many possibilities, you will learn to let go of these feelings and to start a fresh life. a good life, maybe one shared with a lover who supports you and believes in you and holds you whenever you feel this way.

    im sorry if this isnt helpful. in the end only you can help yourself out of this situation. we all felt it. i felt it for many years. but this is how i got out of it. training myself to be patient, to accept who i am, and to fall in love and give life my all, against all odds and all obstacles. please join me in doing this.

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  • the problem is that i cant and will never accept this part of me and i just cant live with it i feel completely paralyzed i have been struggling for more than 10 years now and i couldn't, all my values and beliefs tells me that its wrong but i cant help but feel this way anyways thanx skyflake for your support

    • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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      Darling...u cannot have this harmdul idea bcs this is from the devil....we all at one point in our lives have been taugjt and trained that these are sinful desires yet they are not but a difference....u have to help urself and be brave dind yourself the way ro acceptance, grieve.....the idea isnt hard wiree but I are using ur pain to give u a sense of identity. ...some of is has done that but it didn't do us any good. Why I say this? Everytime one of us tell u that its ok to accept urself...u will feel your ego is threatened. So try and accept urself and start a better life or choose to be caught in the cycle of torture by ur thoughts....u are not what u think and only u have the power to help urself habibti

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    • I am really trying sadisbad thank u sweety

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    • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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      The first step isto accept that these desires are not likely to change and God not an impossible creature unlike other stubborn human there is a place in His religioun for u to be gay ajd religious. Its best to know what happens to u while u try abd accept and identify ur bad thoughts...pm if u want frnd...I will try and help to tge best of my ability

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    • i want to reach this peaceful state where i accept it all .....

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    • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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      Start with getting rid of the toxic beliefs. Any religion is only for our good. If islam that u know condemns u, u cannot follow it....I meam the interpretation. ...start by building up the courage to learn more.....u will feel that u are changing thingd or basically working towards ur fabor which is true. ...u need a space to be accepted truly and there is a place bit other ppl being homophoboc will give u an unfair interpretation. Start by rejecting those and see the Quran for what it really is. Go to you tube and type quranist network tv and watch quran and homosexuality.. see if it makes sense and help u.

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    • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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      Pm me if u like.

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  • 25-34_f_w_h1_f2
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    The first step is to come out to yourself, this is basic self reflected homophobia, stay strong it will pass we've all been through it.
    Read up on everything, see what your heart wants and follow it and if not stick to what your brain tells you. at the end DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

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