Hi everyone I'm really glad I found this community that I had no idea it existed before an FB friend of mine told me about it yesterday. First, let me start by introducing myself a little bit. My name is Omar, I'm 21 and I'm from Egypt. I've accepted being gay ever since I was 17 but I've only recently started connecting to my gay side. Even though I had fully accepted myself and my sexuality I've always been too afraid to do anything or meet anyone, I used to live kind of as a lost soul but with time that fear is now a lot less ( can't say gone, just the right amount to stay safe and discreet). One month ago I made what you can call a "gay FB account" so I can share whatever it is on my mind, stuff that I can't really write on my normal FB account (not yet atleast) and I started talking to other gay people, listening to their stories and sharing mine and I made some good friends now, I think I might even meet one of them this weekend and have my first face to face conversation as a gay man. I just hope it wont be too awkward :P. Okay, so now that I've found this community, let me share my first post and please tell me your feedback and if you've had a similar experience
If you were a closeted gay like myself then you probably used to distance yourself as much as you could from the whole "gay community" or anything related to being gay for that matter, you just didn't want to be reminded of the one fact you are in denial about and the one fact you know you can't change, so you despised everything and anything closely related to it, unlike a straight person who is secure about himself won't be troubled with any thoughts whatsoever if a gay topic is discussed.
That's why, when a closeted gay finally starts to accept himself and be introduced to the whole "gay community", the lifestyle of it might come in as a shock to him more than someone who is straight, even though as a gay person he should be more comfortable with it but that's not the case because of the gap he had to create between him and that lifestyle when he was still closeted.