I brought this up briefly in my intro topic, but I've been feeling a bit confused lately and decided to write about it, to process things.
I'm married to the most wonderful, funny, adorable, loving, caring man I could ever dream of. I am truly lucky. He is also a best friend, and I love him deeply.
I've been confused about my sexuality for a while now, and recently came out as bisexual to my husband, which he had no problem with. But the problem for me is, I feel like I got into a serious relationship (met at 1 too young and never had a chance to explore my sexuality further. I've kissed my best friend (girl) when I was 14 and she was one of my first girl crushes, but that's all the experience I've had.
I find myself now, at 25, craving a woman's body, a woman's touch, her soft skin and gentle eyes. I yearn for the intertwining embrace and her writhing body in my arms. The touch of the small of her back, the back of her neck, the inside of her thighs, and lustful look in her eyes. Of course, many other places as well but I don't want to get too intimate here.
And there is nothing I can do about it. All I can do is dream. My husband is open to a threesome, but I don't have the confidence to pursue that, given that I'm overweight. I'm trying to lose weight now, I just can't see myself having sex like that at this weight. Who would want to anyway.
I'm not even sure if I want my first girl experience to be in a threesome. but I could never cheat on my husband, I love him too much. I just wish I could suppress these desires.
All I know is I don't want to die without having had a chance.
There, it's out now. thanks for letting me spill. I feel a bit better.