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Straight for 19 years, Then Suddenly I'm in love with my Bestfriend!

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Hi,
I am a 19 year old college girl form Egypt.
My problem started 9 months ago when I started having a crush on my bestfriend.
All my life I've been attracted to guys! but i never wanted a typical marriage. I've had crushes on lesbian to characters and i was always Pro LGBT Rights although i was straight or at least i thought so.
Suddenly 9 months ago i started noticing an attraction to my bestfriend! I always wanted to be around her, i get agitated when she touches me...i feel butterflies when i look into her eyes, and i miss her all the time! So i realized that I'm in love with her.
I started hinting that I am attracted to girls. When ever we're talking about hot celebrities i always mention girls and how hot i think they are. i even discussed LGBT issues with her...she respects my opinion but doesn't agree with me.

I know i should forget about her in order not to ruin our friendship, but now i when i imagine my future i always Imagine it with a girl. although i am attracted to guys i would rather be with a girl.
As i live in a very conservative society, i cant meet gay girls and i cant seem to get over my bestfriend

I need Help, I dont know what to do!
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  • 17-24_f_w_h1_f4
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    i've been there .. check your msgs & i'll tell you there what to do

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  • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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    Honey, I want to say that you are a girl who likes girls. I started my life assuming I was a hetero with sexual problems...but my immediate penis erection to gay porn dsnt really show that. I know ou are nervous. Actually from the vivid description you have given to me it just shows no one chooses to be attracted ot the same sex.

    • Aww it feels good to know i'm not alone! I've always thought of myself as a straight girl with commitment problems thats why i've never been in a relationship. Then i realized there is nothing wrong with me, i was just playing for the wrong team

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    • 51-65_m_f_h1_f4
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      DARKCHO..............U R NORMAL GIRL......I WAS SAME LIKE U

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  • 17-24_m_b_h3_f3
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    And no need to put labels.....you like women more! YAY!!! Just accpet his gift from Allah and move with life.No need of curse. I did that. Does NOT WORK

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  • Well, I think you're into girls but I don't know you well enough to be able to tell if you're into just girls or both guys and girls, that you know better However, you're right you should really stop crushing on your bestfriend, most of us been there before, its kinda typical so don't freak out but if you see your friendship is too good and strong then keep it this way and do not take any risks because after all friends are in most cases much better choice to stick with than a bf/gf less drama at least! Just start looking for someone new to crush on that you won't lose anything or risk anything while doing it Who knows, maybe you'll find the right one sooner than you think Its not that bad in Egypt you know, it just takes some time for us to form the needed courage to take a step further but we get there eventually, you're younng and this is your 1st experience so its normal to not have it all easy

    • I wish it was easier around here! we're suppose to be a civilized country. but no wonder, if we dont even have human right how are we suppose to have gay rights?! :P
      anyways I hope it gets better sometime and people have the courage to express who they are without the fear of being oppressed

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  • 25-34_m_f_h1_f4
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    well my friend DarkChocolate3000.

    thanks to share us ur problem, most of us live in close society, u can try more and more with here, its good coz she respect LGBT, its good point to chat with her, try to watch with her romantic lesbian movies and look at her feeling,

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  • well I've already got a plan, and I'll tell you guys how it goes

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