I haven't posted anything here in a while. I guess I didn't have a lot to share or just because I'm a bit lazy these days. Srsly..need to get to rehab!! But I say no..no..no :P
Well, anyhow..I have big news! Very recent news to be exact!
Last night I came out to my sister. No. Not face-2-face. No. Not through the phone. But, email. Yeah. I am chicken; who are you? Nice to meet you. Well..you might wonder what I said? It was aaaa long email. I basically told her how life's too short and I don't want to live the rest of my life feeling alone. I told her that I loved her and how I respect her. And, that I only wanted her to know and no-one else. Because she's the only person I trust in my family and my only best friend. I told her how hard it is to struggle alone and that I don't have the energy to do it on my own any longer. That I need someone to release this burden I have...this secret. That it's not a disease, that it's no-one's fault (especially not mine), that it's not haram (because you can't choose to be - it doesn't make sense to be punished for something you have no control over..no power) and that I am a good Muslim and a very good person in God's eyes. And I will work hard on keeping it that way. I told her that my intention is to bring us closer and not break us apart. And that I need her in my life to comfort me, when things get hard. I mentioned that I don't want to keep secrets from her...I want to be able to tell her everything, like she can with me.
Well...anyhow to keep the story short. Yes. I am a bisexual. I accept myself and I hope you do too (basically).
I got a text from her this morning. Telling me that she loves me no matter what and for who I am. And that she's there for me whenever I need her.
So, my day started out pretty good. I was relieved. Then I thought..well....as long as I'm "in" it..might as well email my best friend (homophobic btw). I texted her first; to let her know that I'm sending an important email. So...emailed her that I'm bisexual (Whaaaaa?) for like almost seven hours ago (yuuus today). Did not get a reply whatsoever. So..I am starting to think that I've lost my best friend. (Maybe?). But, I'm gonna give her the space and time she needs. Half hour? Too much? O.K. Two days...will do I guess. I will keep you posted guys. :D .